MY TRUE SELF(:

Saturday, May 31

I <3 CHC

Service was very diff today.. Actually i was sick but then i still went to usher.. i felt super depressed during serving.. sometimes i feel i am not good at usher at all... there were times i told myself i am not fit to be an usher.. This is why... when i usher i always forget where are the empty seats and the ministry members... then when i have to fish i also cant get ppl easily... then once service starts i find it very hard to fill the seats.. i find it hard to talk to the ppl when it is praise and worship.. I look at other ushers the work fast and effectively like k.s and garrick and ALOT of other ushers... I wonder why i dun have the same confidence as them... hais.

But then service kinda cheered me up.. especially the sermon i actually thought it would be kinda boring but it was totally diff the presence was in the service throughout and the message was very impactful. It was totally for me .. JESUS'S DNA.. it was really the message for me.. every word the Pastor Tan said felt like they were targeted to me.. It encouraged me to do better in usher.. even if i takes some time to become a better usher i know i can do it! I can do all things through Christ who strengths me!!!

Then there was a WYZ camp breifing so i got to see the WYZ pos ppl hahahahaha and then "Pastor Kong" was disturbing my fellow blue sotong JY so i disturbed him back lol.. K.S was there but i ignored it(of course sotong mah not human)... hahahha saw mushroom told Xin Yi abt mushroom and then she laughed alot for some reason... mushroom ignored the blue sotongs.. hais.. why they always ignore us .. always happens without fail... but nvm! i saw Shu Wen i very happy liao!!! so long never see her ... hahahaha oh yar! Wei Ren wants JY to join Miss Sunshine i really think she can actually if she trys her best... alot of ppl from our cell can go for the miss sunshine and mr charming... but nobody want to join lol.. hmmm but johnny was recommended publicly lol hahahaha he got no choice but to join hahahaha..
hmmm why do i hear the sound of a indian wedding?? wedding at HDB??? weird hahahha i guess thats it for today's post i kinda forgot abt the other things i wanted to blog abt LOL... I LOVE _______(alot of things can be added here actually)!!!haha so is my blog post neater in paragraphs??

Labels: dun ignore Blue Sotongs

♥Ran ♠Miki ♣Su ♦Dia @ 7:24 PM

Friday, May 30

Boredom!!!!

woah sian i really bored leh what to do... Hw is killing me!!!! but no choice.. having tuition soon... Soo eng is super nice!!! She teaches very well ... hahahaha but i still hate studying.... lol!! Physics sucks man... now that i have to go for the stupid physics olympiad i feel like killing my self!!!

♥Ran ♠Miki ♣Su ♦Dia @ 1:51 PM

Thursday, May 29

haiz...

Actually now i already quite lazy to write blog liao... it always happens... if onli something exciting would happen... hmm Actually since got nothing better to so i want to introduce konata and kagami from lucky star!!!

according to JY... i am kagami(purpple colour hair) and she is konata(obviously the blue colour hair) hahahahaha.. actually quite similar in terms of how we behave towards each other but then in terms of appearance NEVER! hahahaha... LOL
And then we also now we are known as the Blue Sotongs ( name given by CC) lol!! for the fun of it i shall provide a pic of a squid

when i searched corbis for squid all they gave me was food and an octopus (huh ) lol

Labels: lameness

♥Ran ♠Miki ♣Su ♦Dia @ 5:24 PM

Friday, May 23

DAMMIT!!!!!!

i am so darn depressed now... firstly a chc member that i haven't seen in years totally forgot me.... I used to be sooooo close to Joanne.. i mean seriously i loved her alot... I cant believe she forgot me... i wanted to talk to her again for soo many days but now i dun even want to say hi to her on msn anymore... How could she?!?!
Mrs Leong wants me to drop physics. If i drop physics the only other thing i can take is lit.. and i SUCK at lit.. My results were horrid.. My bros are surprised that my eng is soo bad... just because they are gd at eng doesnt mean i am.. I hate my results...
I dun mind pl getting higher than me but ppl that constently come up to my face and say they will surely fail and then get 1st in class annoy ... Yes i am frustrated and annoyed over that small issue.. why is everything not gd enough for them!!! trying to positive with what i get is hard when ppl are mourning over marks that are sooooo high already..
I hope service tomm will cheer me up and not make me more sad instead...

♥Ran ♠Miki ♣Su ♦Dia @ 11:00 PM

WHAT TIME IS IT?

time for.....SCHOOL HOLIDAYS!!!! hahahahaha upcomin activities for the holidays... Class 2D 07 party( i dun think i can go).. Physics olypiad practise lessons... PBL project at my place... Eugene's b'dae party..... INSPIRE CAMP!!!!!( the most fun activity cant wait...hmmm where to get the $25 from...) hahahahaha lol and the best part abt the holidays no cca practice!!!!! hahahaha .... but still got the worst part homework.... I HATE HOMEWORK!

Labels: lol lol

♥Ran ♠Miki ♣Su ♦Dia @ 5:21 PM

Thursday, May 22

That someone!!!

Finally that someone didnt ignore me... actually that someone ignored me at first...that someone is very funny and cool! But i think Pastor Zhuang and Wei Ren are SOOO cool!!!!! ok i think i become wan yi liao hahahahaha... I am a campus revivalist... STC revival is possible!!! That someone is evil sometimes lor.... Aiyar atill got the Sally super annoying.. Sally is evil... Sally should try to be a more nicer person lor....

♥Ran ♠Miki ♣Su ♦Dia @ 9:13 PM

Monday, May 19

Love what u do!!!!

i came back from a day out at the beach and was feeling quite tired.. As usual i asked my mom for the com she let me use.. I was talking to Janice abt a thing that actually has been affecting me.. Truthfully i ask u.. have u ever watched a celebrity and gotten depressed.. well i have... Today i was talking to Janice and i started to think abt how celebrities sometimes get famous so easily and some of them are as young as me ( YES I AM YOUNG !!!) .. It depresses me .. I think am i not talented why are they so famous and i cant do anything at all.. I think to myself i suck at dancing and because i want to be a psychologist i feel that i cant seem to help anybody.. i feel like i am making it worse... but Janice reminded me that these celebrities will in one way or another lack something we have in abundance.. She also told me as long as i Love what i do that that is already great. Some celebrities do not love what they do .. But i do i love dancing i love helping ppl.. even though i may fail sometimes i will definitely continue trying!! If i ever fall i know God wil pick me up!!! Well the shocking news that is definitely shocking!! i never really adored Hey Say Jump that much in fact they usually make me frustrated and agitated... ANOTHER shocking news... i deleted all pics of Yuto haruma teppei and hiroshi... I just felt if i continued to keep them i would get hurt myself more .. Time to step out into a new life!!! but the name yuto will still be used.. ohohohoho to all those who noe... HEHE i hungry liao

Labels: GOD LOVES ME AND I LOVE HIM

♥Ran ♠Miki ♣Su ♦Dia @ 7:20 PM

Friday, May 16

RESULTS AHHH

Woah yesterday and today was horrid ... Exam results mah... My physics FAIL.... Only 5 ppl pass in the whole level.. but one got 75 which is like super high lah... I FEEL LIKE KILLING VANESSA OW!!! ?Thank God i passed my A maths which i thought i surely fail liao.. Bahhh i very sick today got flu.. i feel like sleeping but i sleep very long liao.. i want to serve tomm but i feel quite sick leh dun noe what to do... Boredom is getting on my nerves .... Okaa-san...

Labels: failures suck

♥Ran ♠Miki ♣Su ♦Dia @ 10:30 PM

Tuesday, May 13

NEED HELP!!

can someone help me plan my funeral .... i going to die after receiving all my exam results liao....
Physics everyone complain after coming out of the exam room
the paper is soooo tough... I tried my best but i had no clue what the paper was talking abt...NVM

Time for update on animes i am watching!!!!

Shugo Chara- The show is abt this girl who has these three cute fairy thingees... called guardian charas... Every child has one of those in their hearts supposedly they are the real self(their dreams) ... The evil ppl are searching for a child who has the embryo .. the chara they would give them whatever they want. Every time the evil ppl search for it they convert the charas into evil charas .. SO amu (the main character) and her frens have to save these charas!!

The other one i am watching is called.. Special A.. its abt this girl and a guy.. this Guy (Rei i think?) is always getting first in everything and the girl (hikari) is always stuck at num 2.. Hikari hates being num 2 and trys her best to get num 1 even though she cant get num 1... Rei soon will start to like her... thats all i watched 5 epis only..

My fav now would be vampire knight. the storyline to confusing to explain... but i'll be a nice person and give u a link to check out whats vampire knight all abt : http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Vampire_Knight
my fav pairing Yuuki and Zero are the 2 ppl in my blog skin.. They look so gd together... anyway dun have to wry abt kaname already after all he is only yuuki's bro hahahahahahaha. to like ur bro in that sort of way eeeew

Labels: Zero X Yuuki

♥Ran ♠Miki ♣Su ♦Dia @ 8:47 PM

Monday, May 12

THE GUYS!!! dun freak out ..

HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA nothing better to do liao let me tell u the history of guys i used to like the guys i like now ohohoho( dun freak out kay!)
First i ever had was BANKOTSU( from inuyasha) lol attracted by his sword lol

Nest one was i kinda forgot which it was but i know i used to like Peet Pamps (ginban kaleidoscope...he is Canadian lol) haha he is a ghost in the show lol!( couldnt find a pic without the girl)

Next one is Orlando bloom hahaha finally a real guy lol hahahahahahahahaha

So know i dun like any of them lol... (actually there is somemore anime guys that i forgot nvm)
the jap craze began!!! My family from then on called jap guys gay.....
First up some old guy but still gd looking hahahahaha tamaki hiroshi!!

now dun like him liao then i used to like Teppei .. he got the baby face!! hahaha( he looks like someone i noe)

Cute right ?? ok hahahahahahahahahahahaha
Ok thats it for the guys i used to like!
TIME FOR THE ONES I LIKE NOW!!!(only 2 dun worry)
I just started liking him today... Miura Haruma... he act in gokusen 3 .. unfortunately he looked like a girl in gokusen! i seriously thought he was a girl!

Now for the one i like the most!!! Saved the best for last ohohohoho... Nakajima yuto is my age amazing right?? hahaha .. he is in the jap talent agency Johnny's (it is a all male agency by the way) He is in group HEY SAY JUMP!!! Simin said she like his song so i very happy hahahahaha..
The only problem is that he is as skinny as a bamboo.... But better than the Bamboos in my sch hahaha..

Labels: YUTO LOVES ME

♥Ran ♠Miki ♣Su ♦Dia @ 1:31 PM

WOAH

hist exam very tough today ... i tried my best i hope i will pass... thats all i can do now... haha I just feel like listing all the nicknames of sch frenz
ME- dodo bird ( sad but true)/ su-chan
Alice- rabbit9more like IQ of a rabbit BAH!!!) / a-chan
Claire- itachi / naraku killer
Preeya- hippo / preegay
Vani-barney
Diyanah- queen
Elvea- mrs...../princess
Farhana-pumpkin lol
Tin wei- tin tin/sn^2
Heng hui- elderly
wan yi and min yee - the yi sisters
Janice-alien (she is forbidden from my site... i hate aliens)
felicia-Feli-chan
if i missed out any tag me abt it lol!!!

♥Ran ♠Miki ♣Su ♦Dia @ 11:01 AM

Sunday, May 11

CELLGROUP!!!!

Woah cell was awesome today the presence of God filled the whole house... I was crying my heart out.. I feel so empowered!!! I know i can do great things for God!!! I was watching hey say jump before cell and someone said ryutaro was a girl .... Lol i very happy though Simin thought that Yuto sing damn nice ohohohoho... its sad though cause i witnessed something i didnt want to see ... nvm... stuff that i never experienced before i am starting to experience i have to learn to adapt myself to these situations to find a solution for these problems... I know i can do it cause God is helping me!

i havent finish my hist revision i think my hist going to fail liao... i will Gambatte to the end anyway hahahahahahahahahahahahahaha

The presence of God was like the first time i experienced the presence of God in church.. like going back to my first love! hahaha...

I want to pray with the STC city harvesters but i cant seem to get the courage to ask them... GOD HELP ME!!! i want revival to come to stc I just noe it can.. i have to take a step of faith and ask them...

by the way i hate lollipop! LOVE HEY SAY JUMP ... YUTO "drools" ohohohohoho

♥Ran ♠Miki ♣Su ♦Dia @ 4:56 PM

Saturday, May 10

OKAA-SAN!!!

I would like to take this time to thank my mom... She has been my hero all these years. Ever since my Dad passed away i thought life could not carry on. I had dreams of him returning home every night. I never could accept the fact that he was dead because he said to me one day before he passed on that he would be ok the next day. that hurt the most... My mom always was beside me . she provided for my family and she was our emotional pillar ... everyone wonders my family is close well this is the reason...We dont want our family relationship to ever crumble , it would never have been what my father and my FATHER (in heaven) would want... My mom is lame, funny and only slightly strict. She would stay up the whole night if i was sick... I LOVE U MOM !!! i never want to lose her... i dont noe what i would do without her. HAPPY MOTHERS DAY! cherish ur moms forever kayz?! Thx God for giving me such a wonderful mom. Okaa-san no daisuki!

Labels: love u forever okaa-san

♥Ran ♠Miki ♣Su ♦Dia @ 7:00 PM

After service..

External as usual boring, nothing to do just stand here and there say welcome...press lift button.. nothing much... but suddenly during serving my feet went numb... i had no idea what to do it was painful to move. In the end i just sat down and rest then later it was better liao THANK GOD!!!!! After serving went in for service as usual i thought i would be siting right at the back and cannot see anything but once again God did miracles and Israel and I were sitting at the first row!!! three seats beside Weiren!! Felt soo amazing to see pastors walking in front of u... the presence of God is so strong at the front.. haha I LOVE GOD!!! but in the end i felt annoyed by 2 things... Firstly "someone" ignored me so frustrating... and then ppl cannot eat with using their hands ... very disgusting meh??? I mean i do it everyday felt... felt super INSULTING.....

Aiyah i noe i shouldnt be thinking to much into tis issue but the truth is i am jealous... I noe this might come as a surprise to Jing Yuan... I have always been jealous of u... i mean u get to interact with ppl so fast. i mean they can even joke with u but they can't even say a 'Hi" to me.... i guess i can never be close to them.... they remember me but that doesnt mean they like me...

anyway i think i should end of this post with HAPPY MOTHER'S DAY!!! my next post will talk abt my darling mommy!

Labels: okaa-san no daisuki

♥Ran ♠Miki ♣Su ♦Dia @ 6:47 PM

What do i do...

Somtimes my frens are depressed i try to help them but i feel i am making things worse somtimes.. My frens are all so precious to me and i dun wan anything to hurt them.. But what do i do sometimes their probelms overwhelm me in the end.. and when i cant help them all i can say is sry.. what can one sry do would it help my fren in any way.. What a useless fren i am... God help me...

♥Ran ♠Miki ♣Su ♦Dia @ 11:51 AM

Before service

Woah very sian always doing notes only... I hope service will be great today even though i am doing exteral... I love ushering and i love !everyone! in usher.. Cant wait to see the drama lol.. should be great!

♥Ran ♠Miki ♣Su ♦Dia @ 11:45 AM

Friday, May 9

MY FIRST POST!!!!!!
lol haha thx jingyuan for the help.. love u forever!!
i just love my blogsking...
VAMPIRE KNIGHT ROCKS!!!
Zero and yuuki should be tofether kaname get out of the way!
lol hahahahahahaha

♥Ran ♠Miki ♣Su ♦Dia @ 11:22 PM