yesterday night i kinda emo-ed in front of my mom then she got angry and left the room to sleep in the living room... i couldn't stand it anymore.. cause every time i talk to her she never pays attention.. she never trys to remember what i say... every time i make a mistake she gets super angry with me.. when seelan makes a mistake.. she lets it go not once or twice but all the time.. this is getting on my nerves... she always scold us because we dun spend time with her.. but in those times we spend with her does she make the effort to get to noe us?.. its all abt getting to noe her... i was emo-ing they didn't care how i feel.. as usual they always bring alan into the conversation.. they started to say " u can onli tell ur problems to him right?" in a very sarcastic manner... it got me frustrated.. this family sometimes doesn't feel like a family of four it feels like a family of 2.. with onli mom and seelan..... i feel out casted out of my own family... Yesterday seelan was trying to get me to understand.. but he can never understand my point.. cause half of the problem is him.... don't get me wrong i love my family alot.. but recently it doesn't seem like i receive the same love back.... no matter how hard i try i cant seem to apologise... cause she has never apologised... even if i say sry.. it will wont be sincere..

Labels: emo-ing

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