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Thursday, July 31

Randomness

ARGH!!!!!!!!
i lost my wallet on the bus today...
i think i am really living up to my name as sotong now more than ever...
i dropped it on the bus and i didnt even realize....
this is the first sadded thing that happened...the next is nafa
i failed almost all my 5 stations...
Mr Francis doesnt give a shit abt me...
everyone else he will encourage but when it comes to me...
he always just give me that stupid sucky disappointed look...
everyone else did quite well.. even those i dint expect ...
i am sooooooo not physically fit..
so saddening...

anyway time for randomnesses...
well i came up with this really random story abt inuyasha..
let me intro the characters first...
Vampire knight(http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Vampire_Knight) -
yuki and kaname
they are siblings that love each other and vampires...

inuyasha(http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Inuyasha)-
Sango- demon slayer fell in love with miroku.. actually kinda got killed by her younger bro(kohaku) but returned to life.. haha... loves her kohaku alot

Kohaku- younger bro of sango.. supposedly supposed to be dead haha... was used by naraku(evil guy in the show)

Miroku- pervert.. flirt... constantly asking girls to have children with him... but true to one woman, sango .. engaged

Sesshomaru- inuyasha's bro.. guy that has no life.. no gf.. just a idiot and a little girl that follows him around haha

Barney- purple gay dinosaur(http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Barney_%26_Friends)

Ok time for the (really short) story...

In the anime Vampire Knight, Yuki and Kaname are siblings yet they love each other. Being a young kid and having nothing better to do Kohaku read the Vampire Knight manga. He became obssesed with the idea of siblings having a relationship beyond just kinship. Yes u guessed - he fell in love with pretty sister Sango. Kohaku decided to confess his feelings of love to Sango. Sango was shocked at first but she loved Kohaku soo much she accepted his feelings and started to feel the same way towards him too. Miroku started to suspect something was wrong when he realised Sango often left him alone and went with Kohaku to places they would usually go as a couple. He confronted Sango abt it. Sango told him that she loved him no more but now she was in love with her younger brother Kohaku. Miroku was speechless and so very heart-broken. Just when he was faithful to only one woman , this happened. he vowed never to like a woman ever agian. therefore he became GAY...
He fell in love with Naraku and Sesshomaru (yes he remains as a two-timer)
He started to act like Barney.. (thats includes he painting himself purple all over and green in the middle)
His favorite song now is
I am Gay
you are Gay
we are a gay couple..
with a great big hug
and a kiss from me to you
wont u say u are Gay too.

Labels: yes i am random beyond words...

♥Ran ♠Miki ♣Su ♦Dia @ 5:59 PM

Wednesday, July 30

oh my...

Jing yuan i dint noe all these things were happening...
why didnt u tell me...
abt your problem
abt those 2 u loved so much...
to think that jing yuan would always tell me she was jealous of u 2...
and yet she tried..
she tried her God damn hardest to bring u 2 back together...
and for ur info... JY never supported anyone...
she was always fair... of course u guys wouldnt noe..
onli a outsider
a total outsider would noe...
i dun understand how hating each other will ever help u ppl...
all i can see is that u get frustrated... is it fun to get frustrated??
just forgive it.. it doesnt matter whether u guys return to the same relationship or not
u 2 probably wun read this... but i just had to let it out...

i noe i have no right to be saying this but haix....
the 2 of u r similar...and thats what causes this conflict to grow bigger and bigger

Labels: dun blame it on her..

♥Ran ♠Miki ♣Su ♦Dia @ 9:38 PM

hello!!!!!!!

haix... i just read bestie sotong's blog..
i feel totally useless at these times...
cause i have no idea how to encourage her...
anyway let me tell u something..
actually i will explain it to u more on another day...
i also feel the same way abt something u said on ur blog.. ok maybe 2 things..
u probably noe what they are...
and if in any way i might have affected u ..
i'm very very sorry...
at least our bond still exists right??
and is STRONG...
always thinking abt u every single minute..

Anyway i'm sry if i sound rude but this is the truth..
U no exactly what problems Kelyn is going through
of course because u always talk to her..
then why do u always call her...
u noe how extreme her mom can be..
yet u still call her...
u r a helper in the cell.... and thats why i have no choice but to tell u..
u got scolded its kinda expected right..
understand u r a guy and parents will obviously suspect something...
haix....
her mom will find it harder and harder to let her go church....

♥Ran ♠Miki ♣Su ♦Dia @ 9:13 PM

Sunday, July 27

service yesterday haha

OMT yesterday was a awesome service man!!!
before ushering must do some cleaning of some cloth...
use masking tape quite tiring...
den that Pinde scared me say my pants will turn blue thank God it never turn blue hahas...
ushering was kinda tiring and stress because i do stage 2!!
yippeee... according to the person doing stage 1..
next week i most prob do stage 1 kyahhhh
scary but it means something...
yippee!!!!!! lalalalalla
even thought it is tiring to clean the tumblers and the pulpit..
i truly want to do stage again ....
stage stage stage stage stage stage stage stage stage stage stage stage stage stage stagelololololol
and to JY i am sure ur turn will come soon... wan yun will definitely give u the chance to do it sooo wait patiently ok..

anyway... thx to everyone who encoursged me when i was down..
u guys really are very very impactful in my life muackz to everyone!! <3

Labels: stage stage stage stage stage

♥Ran ♠Miki ♣Su ♦Dia @ 9:36 AM

Friday, July 25

haix...

alot of problems happening and its all because of me..
i am a idiot a selfish idiot
i cant do anything...
i dun want this to happen at all..
then why does it happen...
God i really nid ur strength now to do what is right...
i dun want to be the cause of everything..
i caused Adeline to be sent out of the Audi and now this....
why does this happen?...
i caused 3 ppl's sadness today...
IN WHAT WAY CAN I EVER BE THE PERSON I WANT TO BE!!..
i didn't mean it I'm sorry, I'm sorry...

Labels: i;m sorry

♥Ran ♠Miki ♣Su ♦Dia @ 6:21 PM

that idiot teacher...

I HATE LL TO THE CORE!!!...
me Chris and Adeline... worked so damn hard for the idiot aces day dance..
then today supposed to teach the sports captains..
SHE does the teaching..
the whole dance SHE did it.. and said that the students did it..
supposed to stand on stage she sent us down...
i'm okok with that as long as Chris is on stage
then she gets the sec 4's on stage WTF...
boasts to us they learnt it in one day...
then let them be the onli one teaching them...
sent Chris down to the floor...
and yet Chris still be enthu
i was so damn pissed already
but then still got Chris and Adeline there so i continued to do the steps..
after assembly supposed to have class so i kept on asking that bitch to let us go for class
then she sent Adeline out of the Audi
WHAT THE HELL!
ask her to check whether the students from the hall released yet..
so Adeline when back inside to tell that bitch that they are not released yet..
then she scold Adeline to jolly well go outside and stand...
WTF lah... Adeline and Chris are the ppl who were chosen to do this they worked so hard for it and u do this to them.. ur so damn biased to modern dance larh...
I AM SO DAMN GLAD I DIDN'T JOIN MODERN DANCE..
i would just die being under u...
u big breasted bully...
just u wait the whole dance is soon to rebel against u...
Mrs E and Miss Shivani should be the onli ones in charge of dance....
they are much nicer than u..

i have soo many projects to do on the com.. i am stressed once i come back from home and there's nothing other than the com to relax on... u suddenly ask to use the com... at least tell me advance... i feel so pissed everytime u leave those stupid notes around...haix...and so wonderful to blame me for u waking up late... i tought u can stay on days without sleeping... i dun mind u telling that u didnt complete ur project but then waking up late is just a really stupid excuse...

nothing happy happened today..... sooo damn siannz and depressing..

Labels: relying on ur strength....

♥Ran ♠Miki ♣Su ♦Dia @ 5:27 PM

Tuesday, July 22

hist project

today supposed to do hist project
unfortunately we didnt complete it..
main reasons
1. we spent too much time on the classroom scene
2. took a long time to find the shooting area..
3. half the crew went to buy food( lesser time)
4. we weren't focused..
5. didn't noe how to speak german
6. the German dude disturbed us... haha

leaving that aside i got pics for the night i went out with my cousin family and her fiance.. pics of me only hahahaha

found this really nice bright light under a bridge near the merlion (pregnant vomiting one).. so my bro took 2 pics.. haha

hmm i forgot where i took this but anyway.. left to right... Cousin's mother, cousin and me!

some place in town i was tired so i sat down and my bro took a pic haha

in the train to Changi airport

some place near the merlion.. i love that place its just so cooling and very romantic place .. at least kinda haha

nice right?? hahahaha.. nvm i think i look SUPER awkward ..

haix i feel very sad that Shannen is in Australia now but no matter what life must go on siannz...
its great that she seems to be online quite often and she blogs regularly yay haha..
i hope she can acheive awesome grades in her school.. and she WILL become top student there GAMBATTE SHANNEN!!!BANSAI!!!love u <3
P.s u look awesome in ur vid in ur blog and ur pics.. u always sooo chiobu!!

anyways Jy dun worry abt that flirt thing already..
i have decided to let go liao..
thx for telling me what to do ...
i love the pretty sotong!! MUACKZ.. XOXO

Labels: alagana pengal... yup its tamil haha

♥Ran ♠Miki ♣Su ♦Dia @ 9:53 PM

Monday, July 21

confusion..

throughout this day i just couldnt understand my own feelings..
every time i try to noe why i did that i get confused even more..
the today i really feel that i am worthless...
there are so many ppl so much more talented then me, smarter and much more hardworking..
i am seriously just a lazy pig..
there's nothing in me..
what can i do??
absolutely nothing cause i am worthless...
i talked to the person that made sooo mad on sat...
i have no idea why i did that..
i am such a gullible person..
i am scared i will fall back down because of star wars again..
i dun noe whether i forgave that person cause i still feel a deep resentment in my heart...
i really suck..
i tryed to make my frens happy today..
i didnt want to show my emo-ness..
yet i hurt them i made them angry...
i dun deserve frens like those in sch and in church..
i'm afraid i will disappoint u guys..
haix... God i feel terrible now.. help me please..
i dun deserve U at all but U loved me soo much..
Ur the only one that would understand my confusion..
Abba Father take away all my burdens..

i feel like crying..
but no tears seem to flow out..

Labels: sunthari the worthless....

♥Ran ♠Miki ♣Su ♦Dia @ 7:10 PM

Sunday, July 20

night out...

yesterday went out with my cousin and family..
we went to firstly fetch my cousin's fiance from the airport
then later we went to glutton's bay near the esplanade..
ate quite alot and i was quite full..
then later walked around just look at stuff.
actually got many other stuff happened but i very lazy to say..
i shall elaborate in my next post probably..
i shall provide a few pics as well haha..

♥Ran ♠Miki ♣Su ♦Dia @ 12:01 PM

Saturday, July 19

disgusting

You are truly a disgusting person...
i thought maybe u were someone that would be nice but in the end you're just a disgusting flirt...
whatever u said i believed it and i felt happy.. because for once u were nice to me...
then what the hell... what u did today disgusted me..
you continued flirting and totally forgot abt me..
u idiot...
because of U i felt immense hatred for "star wars"..
not all star wars ppl are bad .. haix

anyway.. hist project seems to be very rushed and there is not enough time for props
i have to finish the reichstag building and the mustache by Mon... haix wish me all the best
I seriously just have to get out of the way.. like what Pst Zhuang said.. i cant be running randomly for the rest of my life.. God enter my life and help me with all of my problems.. onli u can lift me up when i fall.. and remove this hatred away from me.. i really dun want to hate star wars at all.. haix...

Labels: i want to fly with You

♥Ran ♠Miki ♣Su ♦Dia @ 7:26 PM

Saturday, July 12

SERVICE!!!

yoyo pplz.. that actually have nothing better to do with their life and decide to read my totally uninteresting and boring blog!! hahahaha

anywayz.. woke up at 11...
immediately went to com play sims..
grandma scold me duh hahahahaha
later got ready and went to church..
i was late..
but when i arrived everybody just relaxing..
WHY??
because bulletin havent arrived yet..
nid to wait for quite long..
then Pinde and Wan siu rolled a trolley with boxes near to our area
everyone stood up and got ready thinking that the bulletins arrived..
turns out it was just empty boxes!!!!
so funny..
then we rushed to do the bulletins..
onli do for our service cause not enough time..
after briefing went for zone briefing\
i soooo happy DOING INTERNAL!!!!
super super long since i do internal ..
so i quite happy...
then i realise that Jun Hui is under usher training..
some more its enyun who is training him hahaha
internal is even more boring then external hahahaha
nothing to do..
but since i was standing near east can see ALOT of ppl that i noe..
thank God never see u noe who hahahah
then one of my mom's last time cell member talk to me..
then i was very sad..
cause no matter how hard i try mom just dun want to come to church..
haix...
then suddenly!!!
Pinde came and ask me to flow the ppl to east..
i got a little surprised..
cause he rarely say anything to me.. lol
then after that nothing to do just worship along haha
got new praise song.. FLY above the clouds..
damn nice..
Pst Kong is sooo cute funny.. cool hahaha
he actually made a airplane movement for us!!
haha he rocks man..
after service went to give Shannen her farewell gift..
in the end she seemed sooo busy hahaha..
it took a very long time before we could give her our gift
we had to take a pic for Shannen and her cell and sharon's cell..
then later take a pic for Shannen and karuna..
before we could give her our gift..
later we gave her our present and take pic with her haha
i am going to miss Shannen alot...
haix..
but nvm i hope she does very very well in her studies in australia
GAMBATTE SHANNEN!!!
after that just went to best then later went home..

one thing frustrating is ppl just kept on talking abt *cough**cough*.. woah lao .. even if i dun want to hear i got no choice.. *cough**cough* is so darn popular.. haix

I MISS WEIREN ALOT!!!!!! haix... can onli see him next week.. which is 7 days away!! how can i stand this!!!! i just feel like saying thx to _, ks and carpet.. thx ppl.. even if u have no idea who u ppl r hahahahaha

GOD IS GREAT.. LETS FLY WITH GOD!!!

Labels: lifting ur glory as i fly with u

♥Ran ♠Miki ♣Su ♦Dia @ 7:59 PM

Friday, July 11

hahahahaha

i think today is a very super fun day!!!!
School was kinda fun...
I SAW LCK ON THE BUS!!!!
siannz...
i onli saw him when leaving the bus
cause i heard someone tap their card ..
confirm i noe is him why??
because adult card tapping sound haha
class was fun
espeacially maths.. hahahaha
after maths supposed to collect the maths hw give to mr lau
but then he left the classroom liao
so we shouted for him then
he just looked back then walk away..
so ppl from our class start running to give him our hw..
i think wan wan's reaction the most funny
her reaction:
pick up hw on foolscap..
"OH NO!!! MR LAU!!!"
starts running out of class to give him the hw..
hahaz..
preeya went hyper during ASS hahahah

ao after sch went to meet JY again..
to go some very very very imp stuff..
had alot of fun..
then suddenly she reminded me we are at long john silver..
then i laughed like crazy..
because of the significance of LJS to us hahaha
then we walked around..then went to take MRT
then we decided to miss the first train..
then later when we tok the next train..
we saw Michelle!!! so funny
she dun recognise us at all though.. haha
nvm must introduce ourselves to her tomm!!!
her reaction was quite funny .. hahaha
then went to JE ..
when we alighted at je.. guess who we saw..
QI MING!!!!!!!
hahahahahahaha..
then he said he saw a chc member in the train too..
how coincidental..
so we all went to library..talk for a while..
then my mom call me scold me cause i supposed to meet her then i late mah..
so ruch down with QM and JY
then at je mrt station.. hahaha
we saw Sarah and another guy and girl..
firstly i wondering why that guy look so familiar..
then i remember..
of course becuase he is DAVIS hahahaha
suddenly i remember his lame comment on the inspire blog..
"lame lame lame hehe"
lol lame right hahaha
went home with my mom..
my mom so fun hahaha.
random as well.. haha
yay my mom allow me to go with dance ppl to study!!!!!! yippee yahoo!!
haha anyway.. i wanted to do something so here i go

Labels: i guess i want to die haha

♥Ran ♠Miki ♣Su ♦Dia @ 7:42 PM

Monday, July 7

JP!!!

today went to jp with Wan wan and bestie sotong hahaha...
before that i had to pay the price of going out
by mopping the living room and balcony ...
hahax
wan yi very hyper for a while..
we went to eat kfc...
then talk talk there for a while..
we went just look around..
firstly went to noda
then wan wan and bestie were trying on shoes..
then we left without buying anything so we felt a little guilty haha
later went to courts haha..
look at computers then also play with the phones there..
wanyi went hyper hahahaha
then jing yuan pose infront of the fan until very cute
hahaha.. went to the furniture section..
try every sofa there..
wan wan was doing the commenting..
later went to bed section..
bestie damn funny..
wan wan and me very sitting on the bed then comment that it is very soft..
then bestie suddenly lie on the bed and then say very soft hahaha
me and wan wan laughing our heads off..
went to buy a gift then wan wan went home T_T
then me and jingyuan went to see puzzles..
then i eat ice cream at MacDonald's then we went home hahas..
damn fun..
love u guys forever manzxc

♥Ran ♠Miki ♣Su ♦Dia @ 6:04 PM

Sunday, July 6

CELLGROUP!!!!!

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thats what i have to say for cell
i mean seriously it was soo amazing
got manifesting then got alot of crying
then got a really great touch from the holy spirit
and got holy laughter...
isnt that soooo cool (like WR) hahahaha
it was really amazing it released all my emotions..
I LOVE W406!!!! it rocks sooo much ...
the best cell in CHC hahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahaha
then i shared some things with zoe wan yi and JY
please dun tell anyone abt it... please
anyway.. we celebrated Jy's b'dae..
then she got this funky new cool t-shirt
and got special meaning behind it..
i think when enyun said it JY must have really been encouraged haha

Anyway i was very sad when i came home..
i was telling my bro somethings
so we decided to talk abt it to mom..
but then she really didnt realise..
haix.. i guess thats what i would have to expect..
anyways i do hope i can go out tomm..
my mom is always like that larhs siannz

Labels: i feel hyper now for no reason....

♥Ran ♠Miki ♣Su ♦Dia @ 9:15 PM

Saturday, July 5

service!!

today was really cool
had to serve usher so went to prepare communion elements
wah super messy..
here got missing there got missing..
serach for the trays was really hard lol...
then got briefing
then i was really very happy ...
cause .. (i have no idea how to spell her name OMG)
one of the usher leaders lah..
remember my name hahahahahahaha
then got a really long break..
so me and hui ying went to buy waffle as usual..
then we walk back...
then i saw isaac and his cell..
then he was saying hi to another person behing me
and i thought he saying hi to me hahahaha( practically impossible)
then as usual we sat down near the metal chairs in front of the lobby..
then we just talked..
then i saw Jodie and Shannen..
so happy to see them hahaha
then most excitingly
i saw Wei Ren hahahahahaha
then went down join jing yuan for a while
no seats so we sat at south.. so dissapointing haix...
then went up for communion..
while waiting to bring the elements out at the lift lobby
i cut myself *OUCH*
with the plastic trays...
but still have to continue serving...
so after everything went down for service..
i was so shocked..
pst Mike talked abt something i was thinking abt throughout the week
disapointments and expectation...
if u dun believe me ask jing yuan i was telling her abt expectations
its really very amazing..
and i cried alotT_T.. tears just kept flowing from my eyes..
it was so unexpected lol
then later went to join cell from dinner..
then got nothing much cause most of the cell at CIC ..
so quite boring except that yu xuan was there
she so hyper and cute... but soooo polluted in her mind..
lol..XD

Jing yuan i am seriously very sry..... i hope tomm u would be cheerful again... i tried but i really wasnt able to... haix... dun be angry please..

♥Ran ♠Miki ♣Su ♦Dia @ 7:33 PM

Friday, July 4

i love my sotong forever hahahaha

today in sch something scary happened..
i was sitting in diyanah's class just toking to her..
then i saw this weird bug flying around..
didnt think much abt it at first..
then suddenly i turned to my right to talk to diyanah
and the bug was on my sleeve!!!
i was screaming OMG!! and diyanah was trying to get it away..
in the end she use her chem ws haha..
Thx diyanah hahahahahaha

physics just did a pendulum experiment
i felt soo dizzy after the whole experiment
i scared whether i will get hypnotised lol!!
hahahahahhahahaha
ms vino didnt come sch again...
then got ws to do so siannz...
haix got alot of maths hw to finish ..
mr lau.... so evil....

Anyway after sch met jing yuan at tiong again..
haha we walked sround the whole tiong bahru plaza..
then we got bored and we wanted to sit down and talk for a while..
so we went into the station and sit at the platform lol haha
then i really feel so much happier when i see jing yuan..
she is soo sweet and nice she rocks haha

we were just talking abt expectations...
sometimes we have expectations of others..
and when they fail to meet them we get so frustrated..
but the fact is that they have no idea abt these expectations u have set for them
they will continue to do stuff that might displease u..
its better not to set expectations..
cause they will never meet them...
i realised this through prayer..

many didnt meet my expectations especially one...but i dun care now!!!

Labels: i love ________ (many ppl not _)

♥Ran ♠Miki ♣Su ♦Dia @ 5:33 PM

Thursday, July 3

sotongs forever

yay i toked to bestie sotong...
and i fell so much better
i really missed talking to her...
anyway i have to do something really imp to my blog...
haha... no more depressed mood!!!!
hehz!!
STC REVIVAL HERE WE COME!!!!!

Labels: thx JY i love u alot

♥Ran ♠Miki ♣Su ♦Dia @ 6:58 PM

haix... yes i noe its annoying to hear but i depressed again
cause i did the one thing that i hated the most..
i feel so hurt that i did that..
i suck.....
jing yuan if u havent check ur phone when u read this
please dun read the message i sent u...
its depressing in a way...
but its ur choice... i suggest not
haix....

I felt scared today after what audrey said abt the spirits thingy
i really dun noe what would be my reaction if i was in the situation...
i spent the whole trip back home thinking abt it..
i want Audrey to be our school revival in charge haha
i think she can do a awesome job..
i can see her passion!!!

hiax... i feel like crying...i want to talk to my sotong darling.... badly....

♥Ran ♠Miki ♣Su ♦Dia @ 5:47 PM